scared

my life is slipping through my fingers like sand... 
i am out of control and all i can do is sit and witness it.
it is genuinely scaring me, i am literally destroying everything i have been working towards.
maybe i do need help.
where do i go?

I lied. and yall got me booked.

the only truth is... i've stopped writting and creating... that at this point there is so much racing through my thoughts that i can't even discern anything of the crazyness. i still linger here, only to start and leave without leaving anything.

it's 2:32 AM, i just finished up a couple of write ups for the awards to be presented at this marvelous and monster gala the Canadian Tamil Congress is organizing this saturday... preparations for this event has eaten the entire team alive but i sorta can't wait... we've worked so incredibly hard! i admire each one of the dedicated executive working on this project... they genuinely inspire me to live my utmost potential.

so, it's late and i'm sitting in my family room alone in the quiet (except for Romi's random sigh and wagging of tail against the floor - in his sleep), closing up all my windows for the day and getting ready to set my laptop away... 

i've never introduced to me kabooki lover to yall!!

ROMEO 

has been with us since mid fall last year, we adopted him from a some family friends

he is my angel, i have no words for his preciousness.

i adore watching him sleep :)

hello hello :)

i've got so much to say, so much to share: so much commotion in my mind... you know, sometimes i just end up saving things as drafts cause i never get around to finishing the post...
i'm too tired now, but i'll be back tomorrow!
PEACE.

under the coconut tree

you be chilling with me

Eat Pray Love

finally, i'm giving myself time to read this book i've been longing to read... YAYYY :)

resolutions, a draft.

1. read more books

2. write more (see blog more :$)

3. eat healthy

4. see my friends more often, attend "fun" events... bref, have fun without having to have a reason 

5. go out for walks in the winter and on runs for the spring

6. join an art class

7. join a tae-box class

8. work towards getting my grades up for the exchange program

9. get my passport 

10. take care of myself

11. learn to sew clothes

...

maybe it's too late to be pondering resolutions... or maybe it's never too late.

2011 here we are :)

so i'm a little late, but better late than never!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

i'm still in the process of jotting down potential resolutions (i think that me over thinking them defeats the purpose... but i want them to be real and i want to stay true to them... ya right!)

cheers to a splendid new year full of health, love, beauty and happiness!

XO

I know its not your fault, but I’m a locked door

And inside I’ma mess by someone before

And I wish that I, I could find a key

To unlock all the things that you want us to be

Let me open up and start again,

But there’s a safe around my heart

I don’t know how to let you in,

And that’s what keeps us apart

And that’s why I need time.

I said I need you,

I need you to understand, you, you, you 

Call up the locksmith,

Tell him we need him quick

We’ve got a million keys,

None of them seem to fit

While you’re on the phone,

call up the clocksmith,

Cuz I could use some time,

Even the slightest bit

Let me open up and start again,

And break this safe around my heart

I don’t know how to let you in,

And that’s what keeps us apart

And that’s why I need time

I said I need you

I need you to understand, you, you, you 

I’m thinking now’s the time,

Maybe its time to go, if I gave you my heart, be gentle,

I’m tired of laying low, lets give the world a show

And when you know, you know,

And when you know, you know, you know

And when you know, you know, you know, you know

And that’s why I need time

I said I need you,

I need you to understand, you, you, you 

I need you to understand 

I need you 

I need you, you, you

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